Gordon Ramsay’s wife Tana Ramsay has opened up and spoken candidly about her pregnancy loss, after the couple lost their son Rocky in 2016 when she was five months pregnant.
Tana, 49, appeared this week on the Postcards From Midlife with Trish and Lorraine podcast, saying she still feels “so much guilt” over losing their child.
“You don’t expect to be holding a baby knowing that they’re not going to last more than an hour. That is always going to be something I can never get over,” she heartbreakingly explained.
About the devastating loss, she said: “That was the biggest shock for all of us, that’s why I still suffer so much guilt, should I have known something or done something differently?
“It’s one of those things, some days you’re fine… but I can have a day and feel really emotional.”
She said her chef husband Gordon also struggled with the loss.
“He was absolutely devastated… he wasn’t afraid to sit and just be sad with me. We talked about it so much,” she explained.
The couple, who have been married since 1996, share daughter Megan, 26, twins Jack and Holly, 24, daughter Matilda ‘Tilly’, 22, son Oscar, five, and Jesse, eight months.
She also spoke about using IVF and said Jesse and Oscar are from the same collection of eggs. She also revealed she has Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.
“When I had IVF when I got pregnant with Oscar, they sort of check everything then, went through the egg collection – Jesse is actually a frozen embryo from then. He was our little frosty embryo,” she said.
“He and Oscar are almost twins because they were the same collection,” she said.
She said she focused on “lots of sleep, a healthy diet… plenty of fruit and veg… and lots of water” while undergoing IVF.
Gordon recently shared a tribute to his wife, writing to his millions of followers: “Happy Mother’s Day to this amazing woman. Love you so much ❤️.”